Dudani and I just returned from our usual chai session at Eggies. I realize fully, how capable we guys are of, amongst other things, coming up with conversations as meaningless as the one we had today. Ironically, though, its generally in such conversations that something strikes me which keeps me thinking for a long time. {I must admit that thinking is not the precise word but then to most people who read this blog the words like ' reflection' are not bound to make much sense and hence I shall 'refrain' :) }
The issue wasn't a new one. Once, casually walking down the scholars' avenue with friends, I had remarked that one thing that no one actually gets is complete happiness. I always somehow keep telling me this thing, satisfying myself by taking examples, and taking people's opinion on this. However, it was today, that I thought over it seriously. And thankfully, I must say that I have not been totally correct all this while.
When I look at the past three months of my life, I must admit that life has taught me how to be happy. Life has been really testing at times. But the big things that life has taught me over this period is Compassion, Love Empathy and Joy.
These four define my life as nothing else does.
Compassion is a quality very tough to develop. But it is awesome. It helps you to derive happiness when you see others smile. Sadly though, by keeping this motive in mind compassion can never be developed.
Love. The cliche of the blog i must say. But then, very few people know what love is. Hence, I shall make an attempt to explain. I see it is an absolute quality and energy. It does not stop. It is the epitome of the spirits' quality- and the body's.
Our need for other people is paradoxical. At the same time that our culture is caught up in celebration of fierce independence, we also yearn for intimacy and connection with a special loved one. We focus all energy on finding the one person who we hope will heal our loneliness yet prop our illusion that we are still independent.
All I can say is that love is a beautiful thing. People find it hard to find the 'right one'. If you have it in you then every small thing in the universe is an object of love. It is infectious. I know I might not be making too much of a sense. The final word on love is that it keeps me going. Somewhere, deep within, I yearn for the 'special one' too. But not having someone in my life is not a deterrent. Doesn't stop me... To reaching out to so many people who look forward to my love. I am glad that I can give them happiness... However, shortlived it may be.
Empathy is a wonderful emotion. Again a very less understood one. Works wonderfully and in a very simple manner. When you can empathise with others a very important realization takes place. I for one realize that my problems our too small for me to be worried. There are bigger issues to think about. My aim in life is to open a company , which deals with equity investments. I very strongly wish that I may also support an NGO which deals with the issues of the girl child. It would be very satisfying if I could help in any way.
The final and the most important one is Joy. Joy is the key to my existence. Those who know me know that in any situation I might have to face in my life Joy never vanishes from my face. Inspite of all that I have learnt/done, I have tried to keep the childlike innocence in me alive. It allows me to be joyful, to smile and more importantly to value a smile.
I do not know whether this blog makes much sense to you people. Even if it does not, I would still be happy that you read it. Because, deep down I know, that someday, it will.
